men who are artists love showing girls, who are so sad, so beautiful - girls crying in showers, girls with delicate bones curled into a fetal position. they want our eyeliner to run but never for our eyes to get puffy. they want our sadness but our anger isn’t pretty.
and they love us being girls - infantile, dependent on men. they love us when we’re broken so long as our pieces aren’t jagged.
Ugh that phrase. Just ugh ugh ugh. And when used about an abuse survivor? VOMIT ON ALL THE THINGS
Also, please notice the tag on the last couple of ranty posts. These aren’t aimed at followers here. Y’all have been great, for as much as I’ve failed you.
And it’s really nice to know that after almost two weeks, only THREE people from there have even bothered to ask how I’ve been doing, how am I, am I dead yet, etc… you three know who you are, Sky, Nimble, and Sweet, and I thank you for that even if I can’t properly express a reply for such concern.
The rest of you on there though? Nice to not even have one word coming in asking how I’m coping with all this bullshit. Not one word from y’all here, on Steam, on Skype, on other MU*s, even as you walk into my fucking apartment, no place at all. As if I don’t exist. Shows how much I really mattered to the fucking lot of you. At least people on Tumblr have given a shit. Hell, even people I know from 4chan are more concerned about my wellbeing than you selfish pieces of shit.
Imagine that, people from the Internet Hate Machine more concerned about my well-being than you. You should go and re-examine your fucking lives.
Seriously. When people say bronies are scum, they are talking about all of you.
Anyone know if EqDawn ever got around to punishing that cyberbully they keep on staff, or if they’re still circling the wagons around her and letting her continue to keep fucking up?
I hate how if an allistic person is upset, it’s a totally valid display of emotions
but if I’m upset, even about the exact same thing, I’m ‘causing drama’ and ‘behaving irrationally’.
Your emotions are important and they are valid. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
DO NOT DISMISS A SOMETHING A CHILD IS PROUD OF. LOOK AT IT. POINT SOMETHING OUT AND TELL THEM YOU LOVE IT. IF A CHILD DRAWS YOU A RAINBOW, TELL THEM YOU LOVE HOW IT HAS RED. THEY WILL THINK “WOW. IT DOES HAVE RED. THEY LOVE HOW I PUT RED IN IT. I PUT RED IN IT. AND THEY NOTICED.” MAKE SURE YOUR CHILD KNOWS YOU ARE PROUD OF THEM.
Some people never grow out of this, either. If they’re showing something off, the decent thing you can do is NOTICE.
So suddenly I can’t post on here with Chrome and the scrolling and activity bars are also fucked. What the hell?
I suddenly want a Caesar salad the size of a Cadillac with practically everything on it.
I’m not saying it’d immediately cheer me up, and it’s not like I could afford this monstrosity this second, but at least it’s a thought entering my mind other than 50000 variants of “I am worthless, my art is worthless, everything I do is worthless, and everyone is right to throw me away and abandon me EVER because I’m really that fucking worthless OH JUST KILL ME ALREADY.”
But, you know, baby steps. Plus, salad.